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写了那么久，终于有了一些突破，一个月十二篇，对我来说已是一件很了不起的事了。其实从没想过要写多少，也没想过会写多久，想写就写。

不过，话说回头，朋友的支持多多少少有些帮助，每每收到一些评语，我都格外开心。至少，这让我觉得我不是在对空气谈话，身边还有一些有心人在关怀我。

朋友，谢谢你们的留言，我会珍惜这一切一切。

感动

好多年前，有位好友，蛮感性的，常被动人情节感动，搞得双眼通红，满眶热泪。当时，实在搞不明白，雄赳赳一位男生，那能如此“下衰”，一脸鼻涕，一脸泪水的形象太要不得，男人应该流血不流泪才对嘛。

时隔多年，我这才发现，我好像有些接近那位好友了。近几年来，每当碰上一些感人情节，鼻子总是酸酸的，眼睛总会湿湿的，只差没稀里哗啦的大哭一场。

到底是什么改变了呢？是因为懂得珍惜，害怕失去。

not so good weekend

Since thursday, I felt sick, went to doctor, took medicine and get home earlier to rest. hopefully can recover soon. Too bad, it doesn't work that way, I am not only having fever, my nerve also got inflammation, so my back and left leg are in terrible pain. Luckily, I got some pain killer to reduce the pain but it is not a good way. Do hope I can get better in coming week. Sigh.. still got lots of things to handle, this unforeseen sickness really cost me a lot.

外婆

原来外婆离开我已有好长的一段日子了，十一年了。九七年的一月，她离开了，我却无法见她最后一面，当时，我在美国。

这几天，不知为何，好怀念她，有好多话想说，但不知从何说起。小时候，老爸老妈都忙生意，家里只有我和外婆，家务都由外婆来处理，另外，外婆烧饭的技术还不赖，好爱吃她煮的海南鸡饭，咖哩鸡。现在再也吃不回那种味道了。

实在有太多回忆了，都不能一一尽录。

外婆，我好想念你，你在那里可好吗？外公有陪伴你吗？妈妈和我过的还不错，你不用太忧心，我会很疼妈妈的。

外婆，我爱你。

手术成功，身体健康

Caryn妈妈将会在今天下午被推进手术室，进行肝脏肿瘤切除手术，希望她能“大步跨过”，顺顺利利，平平安安捱过这一项手术，更希望在手术康复后，不再被癌症困扰，愿她身体健康。

后记 ：由于肿瘤扩展太快，医生宣告无法切除，需要另寻其他治疗方法，真希望能尽快找到新方法将病情控制下来。

隐形眼镜

曾经试过戴隐形眼镜，感觉很麻烦，戴了不到几天就决定放弃。从此都没有再戴的念头了。最近，被告知一般外景拍照，不戴眼镜的效果会比戴眼镜来的好，为了让婚纱照更好看，终于又戴起隐形眼镜了。

对我来说，这真是一项苦差，佩戴有难度，保养有难度，并不如一般眼镜，不想用了，随手脱下即可，不需确保双手的卫生，又要带备容器来收隐形眼镜。

隐形眼镜 - 对某些人来说可能是又爱又恨，我却对之毫无好感，要不是为了拍照，我是不太可能带隐形眼镜的。

Project Manager

Actually, I don't really bother what title my boss gave me, I am more concern on my wages. This title has been followed me for 13 months after I returned to Transwater, however I don't really feel that I deserved this title. Main reason - I am not really managing projects, I am more like application engineer at the moment, or maybe a "senior" application engineer, since I am still involve a lot in detail engineering, and software configuration.

I guess it is really the time to set a target for myself, or for the job that I am doing, I need to transfer or train up my subordinate to take over the detail engineering role. I need to focus in project management, schedule, costing and etc.

So, please call me engineer before I really feel that I deserve to be call a P.M.

OMG

I am in Miri for a meeting. Since not sure how long the meeting is going to take, decided to go for a later flight back to KL. I have asked my admin to book me a 615pm flight connecting to Kuching and departure at KL around 940pm.

The meeting went on smooth, and finished around 12. So, decided to try my luck at the airport, to put my name in the waiting list for 220pm fligth. Unfortunately, luck is not at my side, so decided to go to Miri office, to wait for the booked flight. When I reached Miri office around 315pm, I just realized from my colleagues, the is another direct flight which take off at 415pm. I am so upset because when I was in airport asking for assistant saying I would like to get back to KL earlier, and they never suggest me to put my name in the 415pm waiting list, and now I ended up in Miri office, got to wait for another 3 hours to get the flight, and back to home only around 11pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!

花仔。花女

去了婚纱店后，终于对自己的婚礼有些期待，有些feel了。之前，一直忙装修的问题，无暇为婚礼做准备，现在终于有了一点进度。

有些可惜，店长不让我们拍照，所以无法与大伙儿分享所选的婚纱及晚装。不过，有了意外收获，找到了Caryn三姨的儿女做花仔，花女。这对兄妹可是大有来头的，他们曾经在MyFM DJ林德荣的婚礼上做过花童。

试婚纱

今天将与Caryn到婚纱店去谈package与试婚纱，蛮有期待的，希望能找到几套称心的婚纱在拍照当天穿。我应该会带相机去将一些试穿婚纱的情景摄下，在此分享，敬请期待。

Budget Planner

Recently, I am interesting in budget planning and budget planning software. Probably, it is because of getting marry soon and renovation, I need to look after my budget to ensure I got enough money to get marry and pay for the renovation.

That day, downloaded a budget planner software, and it seems quite good, much more better than my own spreadsheet budget planner. I guess I will stick with this software for time being.

Do hope this budget planner really helps me to save some money by having a better control and understand my own financial status

四一。哥哥

谭咏麟的歌迷竟然写张国荣，好像有些怪，其实不然，只因我并不是超级死忠粉丝，也没实实在在经历过那个八十年代，也许那时我还小。

一转眼，哥哥已离开五年了。不过由于科技发达，我们还是有好多机会接触哥哥的一些些的音乐，电影。

对于一位优秀艺人（应该称之巨星吧）的离去，实在觉得惋惜，每每提起香港娱乐巅峰期，哥哥，姐姐等都是代表人物，他们无论在舞台，戏剧的演出，表现都是那么得精彩，让人惊叹的。

在此，愿所有爱哥哥的人继续支持哥哥，也希望哥哥在另一国度里，继续发光发热。